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but it doesn’t sound like you’ve made a forever and ever commitment to this person, so you don’t have to treat the relationship as if you have. if he’s unwilling, he probably was not peanut butter after all, and probably just the target-store brand almond butter you decided you’d try that one time. the part where you claim that you don’t really even have a question, when you are in fact second-guessing your entire relationship and how you feel about sex. there was a response here a few weeks ago, regarding a lw who caught her husband receiving naked pictures from someone online. don’t have someone already lined up when you talk to john about it. no one that hit on me seemed any more fun, more satisfying, or ‘better’ than the guy i am with now. since there doesn’t seem to be an answer to those sorts of questions, it’s nice to know i’m not the only one. my future husband was in the mix for a while, and i knew it was love when i would be having a good time with another man, and spending the whole time wishing it was him. i would have gone along because i have also spent a lot of my life feeling ugly and unwanted and unlovable and i figured that the six date ding dong was “better than nothin'”. do in fact take work, and for the most part i’m suspicious of anyone who claims that their relationship is awesome all the time and that there are never doubts…because, well, most of us have jerkbrains to some extent, and crushes, and wacky what-if scenarios. the thing is, the fact that we’d started dating when i felt like this was maybe my omg only chance really made the relationship screwy, especially as we started to grow apart. i’m not even the same person i was when i met my sweetie, and that’s okay too. you don’t realize how many decisions are impacted by having a partner until you don’t have one. explore your sexuality, don’t get down on yourself when you don’t have a date, trust your feelings when you decide what to do with male interest (you can also pursue men too). you don’t marry wonderful people because as awesome as they are they’re not worth making space in the refrigerator, and compromising on what you eat for the rest of your life., one favor you could do for me right now is to stop posting in this thread. easiest way to clean the lint vent in your dryer (and you should do it today! are you living your life to please yourself or to be a part of this couple? letter is freakishly like one that i was thinking of writing about 3 years ago., whether you’re leaning towards stay or go, it might help to think of your relationship with john as a valuable piece of your life. maybe your feelings a sign that this particular monogamous relationship just isn’t as good as you need it to be. whatever you choose, lw, i wish you all the health, happiness and adventure in your life that i have found in mine. i’m sorry, everyone, and won’t be commenting again here until i fully understand the rules. boyfriend had told me, when we first became a couple, that he’d had nine girlfriends before me and that he’d always been the one to get dumped every time. been watching up close over the last two years as my parents complete the process of separating their lives, i’m often plagued by doubt of: “is this the one? one partner can’t imagine not going to church every sunday, the other partner wants to change faith. are you okay feeling this way for the rest of your life, and not ever acting on it? was the same way in some of my early relationships, because i assumed that all relationships must have prices of admission that were like the ones i was paying (not being really attracted to the guy, running out of things to talk about, having totally different goals for the future, fighting a lot, etc. but he wasn’t who i needed in my life. and i had some awesome times, and made some really good friends, and had some great jobs (and some not-so-great ones) and lived in some great places (and some not-so-great ones). one partner wants kids or marriage or co-habitation, and the other doesn’t. i would have gone along with pretending to like and/or love him if he had liked me romantically, all the while hoping that my “love” and comparative hotness would ultimately influence him to change all the things about him that i didn’t like and were, in actuality, deal breakers. so i’m firmly behind the captain in her bias – and i say this as someone who did open up a monogamous relationship successfully*. otherwise, the problem is with the people (read john) and not with your chosen relationship structure. and leave out the narrative about how you love him but just want to experience “the single life. to try new things so you don't regret it later in life? but like a few of the other unicorns above, considering the future without him felt lonely and lesser, not awesome and liberating. your market price is the same whether zero or twenty people like how you look. if i’m ever in a relationship again, it will be with someone with whom i feel as much of a sense of possibility and adventure and slight craziness that i feel by myself. it worked well for me, as someone who kept getting trapped in bad relationships because of serial monogamy.
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i’m saying that for those of you who think it’s weird you’ve only had sex with one guy/girl or who haven’t even had sex yet at all and are afraid of being judged – stop. losing your daughter and not being totally screwed up and devastated for years? time i just want a pal who is his own person, who’s with me simply because we have a great time together, someone with his own life who recognizes mine as being just fine as it is, someone who’s generous with me and values what i have to offer, and doesn’t keep a score sheet. like, i could go see if maybe this first guy i ever met isn’t necessarily the perfect guy for me, maybe there’s someone else better for me… only i can’t, because i owe him for loving me when i was unlovable. the devoted attention i got from boyfriend that evening was like a soothing balm, but the next day it was back to the grindstone and everything was horribly, soul-rendingly awful all over again, nothing had changed, and i knew this couldn’t be my life anymore. at that point i wasn’t even sure i would every want a ltr with anyone, ever.’m a unicorn (married to my first serious partner, my only other relationship being one guy for three weeks when i was 15). when breaking up, you don’t want to give the other person false hope for a reconciliation- that’s going to hurt them more down the road. but gifts are gifts- you don’t owe it to the person to give a perfectly equivalent, or more expensive gift, back. i think the fact that this is giving you such distress is, as ca puts it, an excuse for you to imagine a life without him, which probably excites you on some level.! i personally got really psyched in that episode when they were getting divorced. depending on your job and situation, it’s harder to have certain kinds of flexibility – move across the country for graduate school! are not horrible for questioning whether you want to stay in your relationship, for whatever reason., the captain has some great advice, and you should probably apply the ‘taking time to figure out what you want’ to the relationship as a whole – including if you still want to be in it. no one else was ever looking at me as a romantic figure the way he was.-feeling like you “owe” him cos he’s a good guy and you’re being irrational and stupid, and your family loves him and he’s the best guy you’ve been with.: we are both honest about what we want/don’t want in bed. reread your letter: do you sound like a satisfied person?: there is no relationship like heroin-frosted cake and if there were, it would suck pretty quickly and rot your teeth. neither of us liked to be the evil heartless douche who was horribly hurting the person who loved them most by suggesting a breakup. the part where you admit your desires for sexual exploration and experimentation, but immediately tie them to your notion of the attention you are getting at work as a measurement of how attractive and worthy you are. but what’s the point in getting naked with someone and putting myself in the most vulnerable position possible if i don’t connect with him? or if he decides he wants to make his best effort to be okay with it, and it doesn’t go well for either one of you, that is also the end of it. (these days i identify as biromantic but mostly straight, so this isn’t going to be an irrelevant parable about the perils of ignoring your true romantic orientation. trust that you want to schtup all those different kinds of people and ignore anyone who says it’s a lie. finding your daughter as an adult and acting like it is nothing special (even though she was a brainwashed assassin? from the book never have i ever: my life (so far) without a date by katie heaney. don’t use ultimatums or try to force him into agreeing so you can go bang someone the next week. is true that you will change as you get older, and so will your partner. i found out he was arranging to meet someone else for sex, and it finally gave me the excuse to end it. it’s a long time to wait to shape myself by my own wants and desires rather than defining my life by someone else’s, but, i am happy with the results so far.: telling my husband exactly what i wanted/hoped for out of life helped me figure out how to tell him what i want/hope for in many other areas of our relationship. i guess i don’t have the opposite thoughts about the relationship working because of the personal experiences i have had with my parents and in-laws having such awful relationships that just were not working.’ve been together for 10 years, married for 8, spent part of that time with the relationship open and now it’s “theoretically, there could be someone else that is just that awesome and we might consider poly again, but we’re not seeking it out. are a couple of things that really trouble me about your letter. not having ever had one bothers me only slightly more, only because i want to know that i'll get to fall in love at least once, for real. i convinced myself, i think, that holding hands in public and true love could be one and the same. he said it as though he were a poor ill-used victim who needed comforting, but also with a kind of perverse pride, that he was such a nice person that he would never dump anybody. yes, lws are anonymous for a reason: to make this a safe space for people to ask questions and reveal personal information they maybe don’t want to reveal to the world as having to do with them. it wasn’t as if there was someone else i was longing for.
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my big red flags in past relationships have often been things like thinking wistfully about one thing or another i would love to do and just not being able to picture it as a possibility if i had to calculate around that partner, and it doesn’t sound like you’re particularly having that problem. think of the rest of your life as “years i’ve been in my relationship with john, times x” for some perspective on how long that is going to be.” just remember that these people aren’t in your relationship. and i don't mean that i haven't had any major long-term relationships, or that i haven't dated anyone in a really long time, or that i've only dated people for a few months at a time. if you do break up and feel sad for a bit, that’s totally normal and doesn’t mean you’ve made a mistake, but take it from me – sometimes breaking up is so unquestionably the right thing to do that your happiness levels increase more or less right away. keep in mind, the rest of your life is going to be a long, long time. and now that i have an awesome one, i’m occasionally all like “uh oh, am i doing this right? can’t presume to know your exact situation, but if i could spare you from awful moments like the ones below i would do it in a heartbeat:-feeling like there’s no way out. this one, i come back again and again to see where the discussion is going. (it didn’t help that before i finally actually broke up with him, that everyone always pointed out how alike we were and how we were obviously mfeo). i love your advice of if it works, do it, and if it doesn’t, stop. one thing a book might do really well is explain all these ideas, and maybe have some sample posts? one of them could be staying with john, but that doesn’t mean you couldn’t be happy if you broke up. i just want these feelings to leave me and ma cherie alone. also, i couldn’t even conteplate being the bad guy who was ending things by saying i didn’t want to go with him – it sounded too much like saying i didn’t want him, which made me feel like a horrible person who was hurting him. we’re married, i’m pregnant, the whole deal, and it’s going swimmingly–but it also sounds very different from what you’re describing. had misgivings about committing to my first boyfriend for life, but i never felt trapped, as the lw does. not one person with whom i regularly hung out and kissed on the face. my advice is to go, but that’s a highly personalized opinion. have some mince pies and mulled wine and put your feet up! it could be that that number only seems large in comparison to my own figures, which are so low they're practically negative. i’ve done research on the polyamorous community and interviewed dozens of people in poly relationships.’s definitely sad for both of them, but i do think that he will be happier when he’s out of this relationship that’s making him feel trapped, and when she’s not with someone who kinda resents her for that. but i am quite certain they would not have gone splendidly if we had dated three years ago. because i know that one thing about the blog, is that when i started reading here i was there going, ‘evil bees? poly love isn’t for everyone, and it honestly does take a lot more work, and a very evolved level of communication. there are decent dudes out there who will want to bone you (seriously. not everyone wants to be ‘completed’ by their ‘other half’. the thing is, lw, if you’re just settling for someone, that’s not fair to them, or to you – you deserve someone you really, truly want to be with, not just because they’re there, and the other person deserves someone who’s really into them and wants to be with them.) and while i am very happy to be in love now, the times that i was single and able to do stuff like “move across the country because i felt like it without giving one single fuck about other people’s priorities or opinions” were times of huge growth and i would not trade them away for anything. little stuff like what to have for dinner and what shelf to keep the creamer on in the fridge and where to go on vacation when you have a long weekend or whether to go out for super fun but possibly ill-advised drinks with friends after work even though it’s wednesday and big stuff like where to live and how to spend your money. and if it’s not, you can still change your mind at any time. everyone’s sex lives are different, and just because yours doesn’t seem “exciting” or “diverse” enough for other people doesn’t mean your doing anything wrong. you decide what your life should be like, you decide whether or not that contains a, several or no partners and at what point in your life you want them (ok, maybe give them a say in the matter, but you get what i mean). we’ve both put in a lot of work and our relationship is a good one. feel like a bit of a fraud for trying to add my two cents considering my almost total lack of experience, at least in the last decade, but here i go anyway:Lw, go with your gut feeling. you’re a horrible, horrible human being and you don’t deserve to have someone as loving and devoted as him. but there will probably always be some other guy or girl who is interested in you, so just be careful that you aren’t letting other people’s interests guide your decisions instead of your own in the future. while i’m happy and comfy and stuff, i absolutely end up at camp jerkbrain, roasting pine cones in lieu of marshmallows. the topics that interest you:Pull on your best athleisure wear, sydney's sculpture by the sea is back.
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one time we came close to calling it quits was before he went on exchange. but neither of us wanted to be the one to say that we should end it.” the whole idea of what romantic or partner relationships are “meant” to be like is bound up in that sort of marketing crap these days, and i’m betting our camp jerkbrain thoughts have – consciously or not – bought into the cultural tropes. spent a great deal of my life thinking this is what i needed. sounds like you are doing some of these things, yourself. there’s a lot more to being a single person than just being able to have flings though, and i’m not seeing from your letter that you want more space or more independence except in this one area of sexuality. it’s your life, and you get to make the choices you want! if you are sitting there trying to gnaw your arm off, stop.: while we are strictly monogamous, we’re both very open and honest about being attracted to other people. you do decide to break up, leave out the part where you had to force yourself to be attracted to him. am young adult, and pretty much my whole adolescent life i have had no interest from guys, and i internalized this as meaning i was unlovable and hideous. you don’t have to resent someone to feel like you’re missing out, or to not be happy with your relationship. how can i possibly know if this is the person for me? everyone needs those experiences of playing the field, enjoying being wanted by multiple people at once, but if you feel like you do, you should go get it. pretty much everyone reading this (and definitely the person writing this) has broken up with someone sometime. you sound like you’re settling with a very one-in-the-hand mentality, and maybe you can carve out an acceptable life that way, but honestly?" this theory was developed after years spent in the company of one such member of the species, carefully observed in her natural habitat.”) it may just be a similar situation since the same issues crop up over and over in your relationship. it also seems like you really do want to end up in a ltr, and are maybe scared that if you break up with john to have flings, then you will not find someone like him again? would you want your partner to stay out of obligation, with resentment building? i fear that one day i may resent john for this, which he obviously does not deserve, and i do really love him but at the same time wish our relationship had developed a few years from now so i had the chance to explore my sexuality. thinking about other people does not make you a bad girlfriend or a bad person, acting on those thoughts without discussing it with him (either in an opening the relationship sense or in a “we are breaking up” sense) is what is not okay. advice for everyone who is questioning like this: get your hands on a copy of the book too good to leave, too bad to stay. sexytimes have only gotten better–and, crucially, more various and interesting. i got to play with man-parts for the first time, and to proudly introduce him to people as ‘my boyfriend’, and i was absolutely mind-blown ecstatic to finally be in a relationship with someone who wasn’t afraid or ashamed to hold my hand in the street. you decide to break up with john, be wary of anything that starts to sound like pressure to stay when you don’t want to or a guilt trip about all of the wonderful things he’s done for you or anything about you being ungrateful. our sex life doesn’t really leave anything to be desired, and he is a wonderful and caring partner. a little perspective is extremely valuable, but trying to talk yourself out of these feelings problems by saying they’re fake problems, or grass-is-greener problems, is no good. asking didn’t hurt anyone, i just thought it seemed appropriate to reiterate the why (and the policy), so nobody wonders for a millisecond whether their privacy is sacrosanct. i was also desperately scouting for someone to rescue me from my lingering hurts about past relationships, and curious to see if it was possible for me to love a man. i only intended to send a message to lw through the captain if i could. yes, sometimes breaking up really hurts, and to get what you need you end up in the position of hurting someone else and that can feel scary. there is not just one singular person in all the world that’s right for you, there are myriad permutations of the right person and the right time and it’s just a question of which one the choose your own adventure book of life manages to put together. point i want to make is, redefining your relationship in any way should be an effect of the enthusiasm that you’re feeling (omghoorayhowcanieversurvivewithoutthisperson=keep dating, get married, move in together, adopt a puppy, whatever it takes; meh=probablytimeto moveon). i’ve turned down several potential relationships because i’ve learnt that good enough isn’t good enough, even in my darkest moments of loneliness and anxiety and fear of the future. maybe if you had met your boyfriend later after you had some other experience, things would be more certain for you, but that’s okay!-neither one of you being brave enough to end it, even though you’re both miserable. the one that you keep telling to stop being silly? i made a lot of compromises in my life for him. we did almost everything together, and i would bring him to things my friends had invited me alone to, not recognizing the benefits of alone time in a relationship.
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: barring a tragedy, we are never going to know what it’s like to be with anyone else. my darling, patient friends tell me that i'm still single only because i'm picky, and because i haven't met the right person yet. see what it feels like to be interested in someone you don’t have to force or pretend to have feelings for. whether you get back together with him after being single for a while/dating other people, or whether you meet someone else, or whether you decide you actually like being single, your life will not be over because of one bad romantic decision about your first boyfriend. i mean that i have been wholly and totally single for my entire life. my boyfriend was cool and unwavering: "why would i want to date someone else when i'm happy with the person i'm with? anyone else who writes to ca about their relationship troubles is, well, having relationship troubles, and therefore going poly is probably not a fantastic idea for them either. this isn’t going to haunt you for the rest of your life. he says that he doesn’t actually want anyone else, which makes me feel better, but i know how low of a chance that high school sweethearts statistically, so. and, right now, i feel more comfortable in my skin than i have ever done before. have some honest discussions about pantsfeelings for others and use it to fuel your own sex life. a favorite response of mine is, “if you think he’s so cool, then you should date him, and i’ll keep looking for someone i think is cool.: there is always someone around with a fire extinguisher when i have an “incident” in the kitchen. and i’d totally buy the ca book…for me and everyone i know. i think about right now or three years from now, i’m perfectly happy saying, “yup, this guy is still in my life, being awesome. if anyone has any brilliant ideas about where i could share it with you all, let me know! there were other issues, too, including my feeling that i needed to explore my sexuality further, my having feelings for someone else that were much more real and organic in how they started, and some problems in how he treated me, but our marriage was doomed from the start because it wasn’t a genuine thing. if you’re uncomfortable with it, be uncomfortable and don’t feel the need to explain yourself. if you change in compatible ways, then this might be the relationship for life for you. flirting is fun and doesn’t mean you have to sleep with that person.” the facts were “we are not attracted to each other and this is one last desperate attempt to shore up something that is not working. i had two boyfriends before i met my current one, but current boyfriend is the first person i actually fell in love with. when you have sex with someone you have a real connection with… oh man don’t get me started. and you just don’t have the right to rake up more pain in your past victim’s life by prioritizing your desire to clear your conscience over their need to move on from those painful events (to which, from their perspective, you and your actions would have been peripheral) in whatever way works best for them. then i met my “soulmate”: the one who actually was also looking for their “other half”, and guess what? lw, like many others commenting here, i can totally empathize with your situation, and i understand the whole “feeling trapped” thing.’m not in my first relationship, but i am in one that i’ve been in for four years now (which is glorious and fantastic and better than anything i dreamt up as a romance-fascinated 7- to 12-year-old), and a favorite fireside song at my camp jerkbrain is, “but you thought all the other ones were great at the time, so how do you know you’re not wrong again? the whole point is do what you’re comfortable with – forget the rest. there might be more to the whole “single life” you feel like you might be missing out on than sex. another one of the unicorns, i do have bits of camp jerkbrain but not in the way you have them. you can (and maybe should) break this off and take some time for yourself. part of your letter that worries me are your attempts to shame yourself. was one of those things that just should die, (it was a stupid, drunken mistake over a year ago) and i guess that i should just forgive myself and move on. if these feelings really aren’t a huge deal, you’re probably fine with that many years spent just with john and no one else. then a couple years i had warmed up to this whole relationship business, he was still in my life, mutual attraction and omgfeelings were expressed and things are going splendidly. practically everybody, except for every last person they can think of at the moment, has been single for as long as i have. but when you’re young and don’t have kids and are in a relatively short relationship and have a history of settling because you don’t think you’ll find anyone better — that’s the time to go chasing something that doesn’t make you wonder whether it’s enough. if there is anything i should be picky about, it’s my potential life partner. ltrs aren’t just about finding the right person, they are about finding them at the right time. all that means is that maybe he’s not actually ~the one~, and that there’s someone equally (or more so!
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may well be biased of course because i love being single, i need a lot of my own space, but i feel like if you were totally into john right now you wouldn’t a) write into an advice column and b) feel it so relevant that you had to convince yourself to be into him to start with. based on my inbox and personal experience, it’s usually a sign that something is doomed but needs a little time to die the rest of the way. like the captain said, it only breeds feelings of resentment. i was barely 16 when i lost my virginity (he was only 15), and almost 6 years later that guy is still the only guy i’ve ever had sex with – and that’s fine with me. someone help me, alanis seriously confused me years ago): i actually did end up delaying med school this past year because i’m in a relationship with someone that i’m crazy about. bisexuality totally exists, or you wouldn’t want to schtup hot boys, girls, and everyone else, and neither would your partner. my current partner was a super awesome person three years ago, but we did not date three years ago, but that was not the right time in my life three years ago. reason most people don’t marry and/or stay with the first person they ever dated is because you do so much growing up in the times when you’re not in a relationship. it’s our relationship (i mean anyone getting these questions coming up) and if it’s making us happy, then it is good. is possible to be happy with one person for your whole life. it is perfectly okay for you to want to experience life on your own; when people are in long relationships it is really easy to start thinking of yourself as half a couple rather than as a whole, individual person. long distance relationships won’t be for everyone, but meeting the love of your life early on doesn’t mean that you can’t move around and have these time of huge growth. and none of the buttons seem to be missing…and it covers all the essential parts a sweater is supposed to cover, i think. the one that would make your life really difficult and complicated if you ever followed any of its suggestions? i also wanted to tell you something that i told her when she was considering an open relationship:There are no “right” answers when it comes to life. yes, our sex life eventually became pretty good as we worked on it, but i never fully loved and respected him the way i should have, which was not ok and not a good basis for a solid marriage. if you still wanted john after you got used to the poly thing with a new person, ask him if he wanted to try things again in a poly context. i totally admit i have a bias, but i came by it as honestly as you did your opposite opinion.’d just like to chime in with everyone saying “this sounds like me! what has been an ongoing problem for you isn’t really a problem for him until you bring it up with him, and it’s not fair to expect him to be okay with it immediately on your schedule. hope you trust your instincts and make the choices that are right for you. maybe it will help you have some conversations with your current partner about what you’re feeling and what you want. didn’t lead anyone on if you didn’t make promises you don’t mean at the time. could have different sections, with each of the captain awkward-isms that we see on here, maybe – geek social fallacies, darth vader boyfriend, and of course, everyone’s favourite game show, don’t fuck that lady!, so why would it be wrong to think about your relationship? if you have one guy that you are seeing and not aiming to get married, you get pressure…. someone should put together the reader’s guide to captain awkward, a glossary of sorts, and maintain it in such a way that jennifer doesn’t have to do anything. they can be a warning sign that you’re not happy with your current relationship, but they aren’t necessarily. you are entitled to your feelings and you shouldn’t feel pressured into something you don’t feel comfortable doing. but as your feelings were big enough that you straight up wrote into an advice column about them, lets go ahead and assume that they are a pretty big thing for you, and probably not going to just disappear. having feelings for random work people might be just a way your inner self is letting you know that you need more freedom, and maybe like me you just aren’t ready yet to settle down. you were never unlovable, so you do not have to pay someone back for loving you. therefore the distinctions between different relationships here aren’t poly/mono, gay/straight, kink/vanilla etc, but about respectful of boundaries/not respectful of boundaries which cuts across all of those other categories in a way that is actually about the relationship dynamics and not lifestyle choices and which actually often reveals the specifics of those lifestyle choices to be fairly irrelevant to the real root problems. if you do break up with john, be aware of who you are without him, and be confident in that person enough that you are able to not fall into the same trap you did the first time., i’m not going to question your love for john, as only you really know what it up with your feelings.’s the thing though: my conclusions were that, no, no one could possibly be more awesome! i may bring in cliff pervocracy to answer some poly-related questions from time to time, but i’d prefer not to have guest posts from someone who does not comment regularly at this time. and being with someone because you’re grateful starts to put you on some seriously uneven footing. or maybe it’s about curiosity and missed opportunities, and if you had a few years of single life you’d be very happy with john. i know this isn’t your problem lw as you haven’t had a darth vader boyfriend but the point is that this kind guy who i am still friends with taught me lots and lots of things and i was a better me after the relationship because of the things i had learnt from him.
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and what you’re portraying as the poly person being “silenced” was just people saying “not helpful! one blogger is going to be an expert on every possible relationship dynamic there could be. there’s something really self-effacing about your letter that bugs me and i think you should work out a lot of these feelings about yourself with a pro. my advice to the lw is the same: tread cautiously with this, don’t expect your partner to be totally & immediately excited about it, and often when this comes up (especially in a new relationship, or one that you’re seriously reconsidering), it’s a sign that the relationship is about to be/should be over). and that’s ok, because if you do not have that future then you will miss out on something, and he will miss out on something because he could have a better one too! even though my longest running friendship ended on implosion, i am very grateful for that person and those years because they taught me so much. he ended our relationship in a quiet public place and arranged for one of my friends to come meet me directly afterwards, so i wouldn’t have to face the bus journey home alone. a result, and possibly as a result of other factors like "luck" and "being interested in people who are unavailable and/or terrible for me," i've been single for my entire life. and none of the buttons seem to be missing…and it covers all the essential parts a sweater is supposed to cover, i think. was with a darth vader boyfriend and then met someone who was kind and i did have pants feelings with but ultimately wasn’t giving me any wowthisisamazing. the possibility of endless hook-ups was alluring, but it ended up not holding a candle to the life i already had. open relationships are minefieldy in that they will uncover problems in your brain, heart, gut, or primary relationship — but if they do, those problems were already there. (which doesn’t mean you don’t love your partner! one of the (many) reasons i love this blog is because of the stance the captain takes on poly which i find to be respectful but not slavishly enamoured or unquestioning as is too often the case on the interwebs. and, just like the lw, feeling guilty – believing i was a horrible, selfish person for feeling like this, not knowing how to justify what i felt, developing stupid crushes on other people and being riddled with more guilt, telling myself the grass isn’t really greener and i should stop being silly and behave like a grownup. when there’s a disconnect between who you are, and how you feel, well… therapy is designed to help re-connect those two things, so that how you feel and who you are are in better alignment with one another. no one is entitled to a relationship; ending one does not deny anyone their rights or due. one partner has a job offer in another city, the other partner is happy and won’t relocate. you could keep your relationship with john minus the sex, would you? i feel a whole lot better after this post (and i hope the lw does, too). but sometimes, people instead grow into wanting different things out of life, or out of a relationship, or out of the next few years of their future. and i have had the jerkbrain about that, about is it really fair to keep him tied to me when maybe he’s just with me because he doesn’t know there’s a better person out there/doesn’t think he’s capable of attracting better (though he so totally is) and i’m a mean mean person preying on someone more vulnerable and…yeah. though i didn’t feel “done” with dating when we met, i haven’t felt constrained by our relationship at any point through now, whereas i did back when i dated my ex-husband. if you weren’t having doubts about your relationship, would that have been important to mention, or would it have been water under the bridge and a vague memory of how foolish you were in the past not to see how great he is? after all, that’s a big part of why you ask a stranger instead of your mum, or your bff. one hand, society likes to tell us that love comes but once, that is is always perfect (*snorts*) and it is something worth fighting for. but the work you do in your relationships shouldn’t feel like “doing your taxes when you’re pretty sure you’re going to have to pay” work. ot – but god how i love how everyone knows about dr. i believe that *you* believe it, but you’ve got a bit of a track record of convincing yourself that things are good (or good enough) because you don’t think that anything better will come along. i dated someone who felt threatened by my being queer and constantly said stuff like, “oh, i’m so lucky you don’t understand that you’re hot, because once you do you’re going to leave me and have a dozen girlfriends. getting to see your ex mack on your friends every time you go out with the group is a pretty shitty experience, but even at the time i had to admit that in her shoes i would have done the same thing. are you living your life to please yourself or to be a part of this couple? the magic of the internet i reconnected with him, and he was such a different person. and that way, john can find his own happiness, whatever that is, and find it with someone who isn’t as conflicted about him as you seem to be. if was something about amy finding it difficult to adjust to life without the doctor and rory couldn’t handle not being enought for her, then fine. fwiw, my current partner and i are monogamish but if never seeing another person naked was the price of admission to be with him, i’d pay it.” the part where you call yourself “horrible” for maybe having second thoughts about the relationship and worry that you “may someday resent john. in a relationship… but i realise that the general setup describes my life situation pretty well. maybe you’re just questioning things and not heading downwards in a spiral that can be so hard to drag yourself out of. i am friends with all but one of my exes and i love it.
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then you can find someone you want to be best friends with and have pantsfeelings for – and let your dear first love do the same. my life outside is starting to resemble my life inside. if you feel fulfilled and satisfied in your relationship, that probably means it’s working! i mean, even if i met a guy who was the right guy (for where i was in my life, if not for ever and ever), i’d probably still be a bit off, because what the hell am i doing, right? then, if in a year or two years or whatever, you think to yourself, ‘geez, john really fit nicely in my womanhood/life plans’, then you call him, and maybe be with him again, if he wants and you want. if he does, stand your ground, restate your case, and walk away. you need to talk yourself out of wanting to be single, that’s a pretty good indicator that you want to be single, even if you do love john.“and while i am very happy to be in love now, the times that i was single and able to do stuff like “move across the country because i felt like it without giving one single fuck about other people’s priorities or opinions” were times of huge growth and i would not trade them away for anything. then i thought about cafeaulait popping up in someone’s life and saying “btw, your bf cheated on you and i helped cover that up and now i’m ashamed of that, so i wanted to say i’m sorry. so you need to talk to him; he does sound like a wonderful guy and that means he deserves to be with someone who is into him as much as he is into them and, for whatever reason, you cannot be that person right now. i also am not that into re-opening discussions on two-month old comment moderation, so consider that subject a permanently closed one. am i a horrific person for wanting more when our relationship is already so wonderful? of the best comments about polyamory i’ve heard was from my first poly girlfriend, who told me “i started to really get a crush on you when i saw how clearly and totally you were in love with your wife. which isn’t the worst thing in the world, if it gets you into a place where you are ultimately happier and you can mind your manners and your partner(s)’s feelings in the process. it can be hard to remember that, when someone is willing to try really hard to make a relationship work, it doesn’t mean it will work or that you owe it to them to stick it out as a reward for their efforts/sacrifice/whatever. only when i look back do i realise it was almost an intellectual exercise on my part, thinking that here is a boy who is really into me, so clearly i should be with him. is there someone out there who might be even more awesome? have found that when a relationship starts out poly, it does make working through difficulties easier in the sense that you can focus on how to make things work without worrying how your emotional needs will get met tomorrow.’ve actually asked an eerily similar question-in-a-thread a while back, though for the life of me i can’t remember where it is now. this might be (is probably) unfair of me, but lw, i’m not sure that i totally trust your assessment that this relationship is wonderful and that you’re really into john now. i think of all the logistics of actually doing that and starting to date again, and being with someone else, and it feels terrible and lonely. i understand how easy that can be to do when you thought no one would ever be interested. if you evaluate your relationship and decide you want to stay with john, you’re always free to reevaluate further down the line. if you’re not 100% behind this relationship, then you should explore them, talk to your partner about them, figure out if you are actually happy or if you’re just settling. it is her boyfriend’s first relationship, and even though my friend is a kind and lovely (and beautiful) person, and from what i have seen their relationship is very happy, he wanted something different. might find that remembering that you can do just only what you want and no more, forever and ever amen, makes your ears come down. with both clung fiercely to the passive parts of our identity, as if it were a competition, as if the first person to say i think we should break up would be the deserving loser. i still think he is a good guy and i am happy for how his life has turned out now. don’t usually comment, but on this one i’d like to offer my two cents. be ready to accept that he is going to be with someone else. i’m not interested in reading your extensive research and/or anecdata. maybe it will help you realize that you want to find a different partner or partners to get your needs met. your letter is very timely as one of my good friends in the process of breaking up with her boyfriend – but in her case, she’s playing the role of john. or else i’ll leave you alone to parent three kids and fuck my way merrily across the land. in fact, none of society’s messages regarding how these things should be done are obligatory. am sorry i didn’t end things sooner, to set us both free. question that you should ask yourself is, “if i break up with john and ask someone else out, will i feel trapped with them too? you want to make things work with your boyfriend, and i understand if you do, i honestly, do, what the captain said about lots of communication and giving him time to adjust is spot on. but personally, i think a lot of that was also due to the show not giving the appropriate impact to certain events (the pandorica, melody etc). already know how the story ends, what with the spoiler right up top, but i wanted to get to why i don’t think your situation is quite mine.
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, the reason i'm "ok" with having been with only one person my whole life is because i know it was 100 percent, unequivocally my decision. one dates in high school expecting to find their life partner, do they?: i have never lived alone and don’t really know what it’s like to be totally independent. there might be more to the whole “single life” you feel like you might be missing out on than sex. “i don’t want to do this anymore” is all the reason anyone needs. i humbly suggest that one reason poly people do not bring their problems here might be that they feel the negative slant against poly? i’m in a place where i’m happy day to day in our relationship, and i’m thinking about which of us will move where when my phd is done and dusted in 15 months time, or whether my so will want to move to be with me before that point. but choosing to be with someone shouldn’t feel like choosing to make your life smaller or choosing to miss out on things that are really important to you. but, in these fantasies, i always go back to my darling, not some faceless, future person. a relationship that works for one partner but not for the other does not work. see, my last several relationships were, by and large, anxiety-riddled no-one-else-will-love-me clingfests on my part. identified with a lot of your email from my own younger-me experiences.” because leaving a relationship can be tricky logistically, especially if you’ve combined house/money/children/pets. you atone by sucking up your guilt and making sure you don’t do that shit again, not by picking at your victim’s partially healed scabs. right now your brain think you need some ironclad reason, so it’s casting about for one, but you feel guilty because he has been nice to you and not done anything wrong.” is that you can find yourself slowly drowning in a sea of justifications. relationships are big, huge things that can change your life. again we were looking at a breakup scenario, and once again we both did whatever it took to avoid being the one to say the words. now that i have interest, the old feelings are resurfacing and i kind of feel trapped with the idea of never experiencing a single life. (speaking as one in a 20+ year relationship that’s gone from monogamous to monogamish to happily-poly-for-years. this option requires that you a) truly don’t think sexual explorations with others will threaten your love and b) are okay with him having flings too.: you already kind of resent john, and your brain is already looking for reasons to go live in the post-john future, which is why you included the part about having to force yourself to be attracted to him. she may or may not be someone who would be happy with an open relationship in general, but trying to fix her relationship with john by opening it up strikes me as unlikely to work. nelly furtado celebrated your right to be promiscuous, shouldn't you go out and do something with that? are not horrible if you find your “pretty-good-but-not-great” sex life lacking and want to do something about it. so i would have to wait until i got to a point where i would rather be alone than be with the person i was with. took a lot of work, and a lot of money (4 months with a relationship coach who specialized in “alternative lifestyles”). when she's single, rylee hardly needs to leave the apartment (or, in some of those cases, dormitory building) before anywhere from one to four different guys profess an interest in being her next boyfriend. somewhere there is someone who wants the mustard yellow, lace-trimmed, button sweater of your boyfriend, and maybe that someone is you in five years, but you now needs to find something else to wear. it’s sort of like the way the advertising industry, fashion industry, makeup, everything, is out to say “you aren’t good enough, but if you spend enough money on our products you might just reach an impossible standard that we set, and keep changing so you have to start over. after i broke up with him, i had had a couple very shitty serious relationships, lots of happy, fun sex with good friends, and lots of personal and professional growth, but i wondered if maybe i had thrown away my opportunity for the whole package. to be crazily off-topic, but am i the only one reading the comments and singing “i’m a christmas unicorn”? it is totally natural to re-evaluate a relationship that got off to a, to be honest, extremely dodgy start, and see if it is still working for you. that it was just a broken, neurotic part of my brain, proving to me that i was damaged goods, and that i would be a horrible person to make boyfriend suffer for my stupid crazybrain, that i would be throwing away the best thing that ever happened to me and i would regret it. we had both made a great deal of how much we loved each other because we wanted it to be true, we wanted to convince ourselves we were feeling that rush of being in love with someone, we wanted to not feel lonely and defective anymore. i only meant to help, but it was out of line and inappropriate. yourself this- how would you feel if you were john? “seeing other people” has a pretty low success rate for the original relationship in my experience, but if nothing else, the experience of communicating about difficult stuff and dealing with the death of a relationship gracefully is good to have under your belt. there is nothing wrong with that, and anyone saying otherwise should be forced to walk barefoot through a minefield of cat puke. my own suspicion is that the situations that turn up here are less often about someone genuinely polyamorous than someone who simply uses the term to justify cheating on a partner or pressuring them into accepting something they don’t want.